Boys Suck!

*sigh*... haven't spoken to David in like, two days. I feel like some stupid lovesick eighth grader or something. I don't know what my problem is. I don't even know if we are actually going out. And I think I pissed him off this weekend when I did my whole stupid guilt trip thing. Of course, that could just be me being paranoid. I talked to him Monday night and he didn't seem too upset about it, but then he didn't seem anything. He was tired. Not just tired, but worn out. I didn't talk to him long cause I would say something and he would anwser with as few words as possible and then fall silent. I can stand silence around him, though it is a little odd on the phone, but it felt strange Monday. Oui...Anyways...my roommate is back so I shall talk to her instead of whine online.

The Words!! The Terrible, Evil Words!!

I have been reading for the past five hours. Not fun reading either, although I won't say the subject matter is uninteresting- just terribly slow and painful reading. I have managed to get behind in the reading for my War, Memory and Culture learning block class, which means that I had to read a long chapter from a theoretical/history book on wars, a small section about American life during the late thirties and early forties, and a section on American-Chinese-Japanese relations of the thirties. And I still have about a hundred pages on the Japanese view of American actions. Last week I also had a two chapters of positively painful philosophy on the "Ethics of Memory" and chapter from the war theory book, which I put off until today, and because of my procrastination I managed to convince myself I had to read chapters one through three instead of one and three, so about half-way through chapter two I decided to look at my syllabus and realized my mistake. This of course lead to the inevitable(or was it really inevitable?) half hour of complaining about the wasted time reading unnecessary material. And for those who claim that they can read anywhere- your one little statement tells a LOT about where you have tried to study. A dorm room is almost certainly not on your list of places you have tried. Of course, I won't claim it is impossible to study in a dorm, but I will say it is definitely difficult. Damn. Now I have to proof-read my journal entry.To avoid too much more reading, I will sign off shortly.Felicia

Blah blah blah...(warning - rambling or incoherent material very likely)

Figured it was prolly about time to update. Not too much has been going on. I am slowly evolving to the idea of dorm life. It was a little lonely at first, but as the week wore on I started talking to my suite mate Amber and I even got a room mate. Her name is Bernadette. She seems pretty nice, and will probably be pretty easy to live with. Her mom and neighbors got my TV set up how I wanted it. When I first brought it I couldn't put it where I wanted it cause it was about six inches too long to fit, but Paul, Bernadettes old neighbor, cut and even painted a piece of wood then drilled it on and even helped fix up the cables and stuff. And I also finally got David down here...I've been trying since I moved in, but he would either have to work late or early or go to school the next morning, so it was kinda hard. He even came down here one day but ended up going back cause he couldn't find me and my phone was off when he called- I don't know how it happened but that kinda sucked. Last night was fun though. We went to the MU and played three games of pool- he won the first, I won the second, and he scratched on the third. The entire experience took almost two hours...we are both really bad, but it was fun. Then we played a whole bunch of the video games there and he played PacMan(he was really good- it was funny) and we played air hockey. I, being the air hockey queen, won both games we played, of course. We also got movies and stayed up late watching them, then snuggled up and went to sleep. Other than that I haven't been up to too much, with the exception of getting behind in my reading and other homework. Next week I will probably update more because I will finally have my computer hooked up in my room, so hasta la vista!Felicia

Just Ducky...

Q: Why do ducks have webbed feet?A: To put out fires.Q: Why do elephants have flat feet?A: To put out burning ducks.

Oh yea and I g...

Oh yea and I got a shot :(

Moved out!

I am offically moved out now. I actually did most of my moving in on Friday. Mom woke me up at eight, we go my stuff ready and left around one, and started bringing it up to my room. Then I locked moms keys in the car, so we spent the rest of the day unpacking what I got up and just waiting around for rick to come with the extra key. I also have no roommate. I guess she decided she didn't wanna go to ASU, so now I am roomieless. Proabably I shall have one by the end of the week. It was kinda lonely at first but I'm getting used to it. I would like to know if someone is gonna move in or not though cause I would like to do something with all the extra space if not. On another note, I bought an autographed copy of To the Nines, the latest installment in the Stephanie Plum series by Janet Evanovich. And I have decided that although it would be fun to be Stephanie Plum (hey that rhymes!...kinda...), I probably would not like it. She is a bit insecure... that isn't all that fun. But she does have hot boyfriends!Still not sure how it is going with David. I have been talking on the phone with him pretty much every night and I have decided that even though he lives over in Mesa and prolly won't party with me he will still be a good boyfriend. I have also decided that I definatly do want him as a boyfriend. And we engage in couple like activities, like making out in front of groups of people (~.^) often, but we still are not technically dating. I suppose that shall be decided pretty soon. As it is right now, I am rambling, and I have many more places where I can go look for free stuff, so until later!Felicia

Oh yea...

Local news today aired an interesting story- my geology teacher from high school was arrested this morning after confessing to trying to sexually assult a girl. And a noteable little quotable I just thought might get some minds working:" Guys don't want to be worshipped by us; they want the privilege of worshipping us. "...Picked it up from one of those advice column thingys...definatly an interesting idea...Anyways...bedtime!

Update!

Oui...tis been a very long time since I have last updated. A lot of things have happened at least... The quick story is that I had my birthday party (the first actual birthday party I've had in years), started moving into my dorm, and spent almost five hundred dollars on stuff...For the more detailed version I suppose I'll start on my birthday party, as I probably have the most to say about it and it is chronologically the most interesting thing that has happened. It was also the reason why I haven't posted in so long...I have been too busy working out the details to really post anything intelligent. Anyways...I got a group of people together for last Monday(the 18th) The group consisted of David, Matt, Travis, TJ, Darren, Joel, Chuck and Cassie. The plan was to meet at a pizza place, have everyone pool their money and we would have pizza and soda, then on to the bowling ally for cheap bowling. The actual evening turned out a little different of course...I started off the day prolly around noon by actually waking up and dragging myself out of bed. I called and made sure everyone was good with the times and rides and such then began getting myself ready by taking a two hour long bath(I had a really good book to read) and then doing my hair and stuff. David got off work at four and was supposed to go over to Matts house and help Matt make my present- he was gonna make a mix CD and wanted David to 'discreetly' find out about ten of my favorite songs. I guess their plans didn't exactly work out, so they gave up on that and left to get gas, pick me up and head to the pizza place at about eight thirty. Around seven thirty David called saying that he was about twenty cars back in a gas line, and things didn't look like they were gonna be moving very quickly. They ended up picking me up a little after nine(and by this time I looked absolutely fantastic) and we went on to the pizza place. Unfortunately, the pizza place closed at nine. Luckily the manager didn't seem to mind waiting, so everyone was still there when we got there, along with all the presents they bought me! Joel gave me a card, Joel and Chuck filled up a birthday bag with lots and LOTS of candy, a couple of mini card decks, some bubbles and did I mention candy? and Cassi gave me a watercolor set wrapped in a feather boa. All in all pretty cool stuff, and it was a really neat surprise to walk in and have a bunch of people give me stuff :) So after the pizza place we headed off to the bowling ally for the Monday night special- dollar shoe rentals, games, sodas, and pretty much everything else. Only little snare in that was that we had to wait an hour and a half for our lanes. We went to the arcade at Golfland to pass some of the time, but we got there just a little before they closed so we ended up just passing the time at the bowling ally until our lanes came up. I mostly just stuck close to David and talked to him because I hadn't seen him since the Saturday before my actual b-day. The bowling was fun, and about halfway through David and I were holding hands, and he even kissed me, though no one noticed then. After the bowling ally closed we decided to head over to the hookah lounge. No one noticed me and David at the bowling ally, but they sure noticed us there. We were all sitting in a circle and Joel started some thing where you take a hit off the hookah and blow the smoke onto the hand of the person next to you. When the hookah came around to David he took a hit, but instead of blowing the smoke onto my hand he kissed me! The reaction was pretty funny- I'm pretty sure no one really expected it. We didn't get too many more chances to make out that night till he brought me home though, and about that I'll just say I might have to throw away part of my feather boa...Anyways, I'd have to say my party was a success. Didn't go quite according to plans, but it worked out in the end. Now, on to other things. The next morning, Mom made me get up at seven forty two so we could go down to ASU and check into my dorm. I got my room key and claimed my bed, but I decided to stay out here for the rest of the week. I also got my financial aide money so last night and ALL of today was dedicated to getting the things I need for school. We got a coffee maker, a microwave, some organizing cubes, school supplies, a blow dryer, some more shampoo, a haircut, and many many many clothes. I have to say I have never bought as many clothes at one time as I did today. I got three pairs of pants, a long denim skirt and about ten different shirts to go with them and the few clothes I have already and a bathrobe. The only clothes type things I need now are a pair of leather sandals and a pair of flip flops. Tomorrow I will move into the dorm for good. I have to say I am a little worried, but mostly I am excited, so wish me luck!

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Pirates of the Carribbean

Have recently (read: last two minutes) decided that I need to see Pirates of the Carribbean again. Definatly again. Perhaps Ashley and I can go on a free movie trip and I will be able to claim five veiwings without paying once...*thinks of Johnny Depp**drools*Yes, definitely need to see it again.

Sorted!

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19th post on my 19th birthday!

I am offically 19...like I said before- not too much of a difference all in all, but it is kinda cool. Got lotsa stuff from my mom. She got me a box of school stuff like paper, pencils, a tape dispenser, a hole puncher, staples and that sorta junk, then another box of bathroom stuff like shampoo, lotion and stuff like that, a lamp, towels, a hamper, dark blue bed sheets, a microfiber fleece light blue/dark blue comforter, a pillow, laundry tablets, and shoes. She also gave me her big backpack- the kind you use for hiking, and my sister gave me a smaller backpack(which will work better than the big one for going to classes) and Rick is letting me use his Cannondale, a high quality road bike to get around school.Didn't really do a whole lot today. I had to work from eleven to five. I got to sleep till about ten thirty. After work mamaw and I went over to moms house for dinner, cake and presents. We had a really good steak dinner and my mom made a cake. We ran out of candles though- we only had nine, so we lit them, they sang 'Happy Birthday,' I blew them out, we re-lit them, they re-sang 'Happy Birthday,' I blew them out, and then we lit two more to make twenty- ninteen birthdays and one to grow on, they sang 'Happy Birthday' agian and I blew them out for the last time. Twas pretty funny. The rest of the night was spent on presents and changing the tires on the Cannondale. All in all a good birthday^.^

*Disclaimer- total three hours sleep over two days entry*

I have one day left to be eighteen. Kinda snuck up on me this year...I knew it was coming and all but I didn't even realize it till I was talking to David on the phone the other night and he asked when my birthday was (I had mentioned that my mom was going to buy me dorm stuff for my b-day) and then commented on the fact that it was only three days away. I doubt it will be too much different being ninteen...the only really different feeling birthdays I think will be twenty one and maybe thirty. Twenty one baby!In other news...I was contacted Thursday by my closest childhood friend Ashley. Actually she called my mom and asked if she has a daughter named Felicia who lived at my Scottsdale address, to which my mom replied with a very surprised 'who is this' followed by 'is this Ashley?' Mom called me then and I called Ashley, and she came over today! Apparently Ashley had remembered that my birthday was coming up and went online to find all the Mindas in the area she last knew I was at with my last name. So we talked a while and decided that she simply had to come over today. We went to the mall and just walked around...tried on ridiculously high heels, a couple clothes, some expensive makeup and tons of Bath and Body works lotions. We ended up looking like we had been in some sort of massive glitter explosion after the lotion incidents, but it was fun. We also saw Holes, which was actually a really cool movie and Finding Nemo which was really cute. Ashley is now a manager at Harkins so we got free movie passes and stuff...it was pretty cool. We decided that we will have to get together and go shopping for school clothes soon. Anyways, thats about it for now...not much else has happened romantically, although we did hang out with him today when he got off work. Ashley was surprised that my method of talking myself out of dating him for some time had been reminding myself of the fact that he is shorter than me...Apparently that wasn't a good excuse for very long because I have decided I am pretty interested in dating him. Perhaps tomorrow we shall go watch American Psycho and Bedazzled. I'll have more to write about then ^.~Definitely off to bed now...Felicia

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hehehe! quizzes!you are a thoughtful fairy. you listen to yourfriends problems and you make sure everyonearound you is satisfied. you write in yourdiary and listen to music just to get away fromit all. you are beautiful inside and outside. (has pretty pictures) what kind of fairy are you? (for gurls) brought to you by QuizillaYou are Cinderella! What Disney Princess are you? brought to you by QuizillaYou are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."You're more than a little world-weary, but alsointelligent and you keep your head when thingsget dodgy. You're everybody's favoritedrinking buddy, but your stubbornness does getin the way sometimes. Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you? brought to you by QuizillaYou have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leavesyour partner bedazzled and maybe even feelinghe/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kissthat never lessens and always blows yourpartner away like the first time. What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla

*le sigh*

You should be dating an Aries.21 March - 19 AprilThis person is a leader, very energetic, alwayshelping others to achieve their dreams. Thoughat times, Aries can be be bossy, jealous, andselfish, this ram enjoys sexy new challenges inbed! What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To? brought to you by QuizillaI do believe his birthday is April 18, but since he has not called me back twice in a row, rarely makes an effort to get in touch with me or offers to come pick me up to hang out or even asks to hang out, I am going to assume we are not going out. Oh yes and I do believe he might be trying to get back with an old girlfriend that he supposedly loved because their relationship ended too easily and he thinks that maybe they shouldn't have ended it in the first place and that she is trying to get back with him, so yea, I don't think we are going out...

Name Statis...

Name Statistics!felicia is the #283 most common female name.0.068% of females in the US are named felicia.Around 86700 US females are named felicia!source namestatistics.com

Oh yea...

A couple other interesting things have happened besides my strange little soap opera in my head. First things first, I got a random compliment at the library the other day. I was just sitting at a table (or rather the table as our library is quite small) reading a magazine when a guy came up and plopped down his bag at the end of the table. I glanced over to see if I knew the owner. He had left by that time but when he returned he asked if he could share a table with me. I glanced up and replied 'sure' at which he exclaimed that I had the most amazing eyes he has ever seen. I thanked him and said that that was the first time I had gotten a compliment on my eyes in a while because I had been wearing rather thick glasses for the past four years. We ended up having quite a nice little conversation after that- he is supposedly a poet working on his first book and has been published in a few magazines and other such works over the years. Twas a nice little experience to have a complete stranger make such a comment though. Secondly, I have another job. This one is an actual job job too- not some bullshit commissions only sales shit. Unfortunatly, this one part of the food service industry. Even more unfortunatly, this one is part of the fast food service industry. Even more unfortunatly, this one is part of the McDonalds fast food service industry. The story is as follows...I had been looking for a job all summer when I decided to go to the nearby McDonalds and apply. They were out of applications but were in fact actually hiring-which was a major difference from every other possibility I had been able to track down. Because they were hiring but out of applications, I left my name and number there for the manager to call if she wanted me to come in for an interview. I did this never expecting to hear from them again of course, but I figured it would be a good idea. Then low and behold, I get a call on Saturday from the manager asking me to come in Monday to fill out an application and go for an interview on the spot. I came, I filled out, I interviewed and she informed me that she would like me to come back for orientation later that day. I had been hired, just like that. I only have about two weeks left to work of course, but thats about two hundred dollars I can make. Anyways, I went back to orientation earlier today. Behind the counter at McDonalds is definatly the last place I ever wanted to find myself again. The floor and the grease and the smell and just the feel in the air makes me want to cringe and run away. Money is money though, and I am definatly a lot smarter and a lot wiser than I was the first time I worked at McDonalds. Too bad being smarter and wiser won't erase the memories...Anyways...thats whats been going on lately. Definatly a lot for a little blonde girl who has such pressing matters on her mind...Oh, and I got a backrub today! I like backrubs... ^_~Felicia

Felicia has a question...

Why on this little ball of rock whose creation is at this very moment being debated in probably more than one place do humans have to endure this confusing muddle of stuff we call emotions?We could all learn a bit from the computers- they just do what they are told. Though according to some they will eventually evolve a conciousness and then the only difference between them and us will be the metal...Let me tell you- getting to close to friends certianly can be confusing. I mean- how is a girl supposed to know the difference between a guy wanting her and a guy wanting her? Perhaps I read too much into the little details. But then, anwser this... If you are friends with a guy for a little under a year, have always noticed a possible tension between the two of you but have always tried to blame it on his flirty behavior, then one night end up lying next to him with his arms around you and your arms around him, then end up kissing him, or maybe more, and the next night the process progresses, and on the morning after the third night of this type of behavior he dosen't seem to want to kiss you- is there a problem? Were you correct in thinking that perhaps you shouldn't have let the first night progress? Or are you just reading too much into a tired boys actions? Would it be wise to go out with him or perhaps just keep it a 'friends with benefits' type of situation? Is it possible to have just friends with benefits? Do I want just friends with benefits? What on this mind twisting little planet does he want??*sighs*I think perhaps I should go try to distract my mind from its little questions...Oh yea...and apparently I'm a vampire...

Another useless info survey

Ha! another useless info survey I stole from sterlyingsylver who stole it from someone else. Running out of computer time...on at the library again.x. name = Feliciax. birthday = August 11x. piercings = Earsx. Tattoos = homemade one on the ankle-I'm gonna get it traced over thoughx. height = 5'6"x. shoe size = 8 x. hair color = Blonde.Last...x. movie you rented = Mallratsx. song you listened to = something on the radio- don't remember whatx. cd you bought = I think that would be Metallicax. cd you listened to = Probably the Daredevil soundtrackx. person you've called = Davidx. person who's called you = DavidDo...x. you have a bf or gf = sorta...x. you wish you could live somewhere else = not really but I do like to visit lots of placesx. you think about suicide = I have but I have never actually considered it as an optionx. you believe in online dating = I have to agree with my friend in her notion that it is more of an excercise in delusion, but unfortunatly I had to find out the hard way while she only had to see my failed attempts (and point out that she told me so)x. others find you attractive = Probably, but I'm not the greatest mind reader of all time so I can't be completely sure.x. you want more piercings = I have considered an eyebrow peircing, but probably I will only get another ear peircing.x. you want more tattoos = Sorta, but they are kinda permanent. I'll prolly stick with my Leo on my ankle, just get it redrawn.x. you drink = Once in a while, but not very often.x. you do drugs = No.x. you smoke = No but I have tried it before and I stand by my conviction that it is a nasty habit. x. you like cleaning = It isn't one of my lifes passions, but when I get in the mood (or bored or mad)...well, lets just say I become quite a perfectionist.x. you like roller coasters = Hell yea!x. you write in cursive or print = Usually I print but once in a while I get a cursive bug.x. you carry a donor card = No.For or against...x. long distance relationships = They are kinda difficult to pull off, and definatly less fun.x. using someone = not really sure...x. suicide = Suicide is a stupid way to solve a problem.x. killing people = Killing people is a stupid way to solve a problem.x. teenage smoking = Rather stupid, but then again, so are most teenagers.x. doing drugs = Rather stupid, but then again, so are most human beings...x. driving drunk = There are people for it?x. gay/lesbian relationships = Not really any of my business.x. soap operas = Stupid but occasionally entertaining.Favorite...x. food = hmmm...x. song = hmmm....x. thing to talk about = I just like talking.x. sports = not really sure about that one either.x. drinks = Soda and waterx. clothes = Jeans and a shirtx. band[s] = Creed, Disturbed, Linkin Park, Metallica, Godsmackx. holiday = my birthday!Have you...x. ever cried over a girl or guy = eh...x. Ever lied to someone = Once in a while I kinda have to, but I perfer not to- makes life so much easier.x. ever been arrested = No.What...x. shampoo do you use = Pantene ProVx. cologne/perfume do you use = My mom has this hand lotion/perfume set called Bijan that I kinda aquired the hand lotion to- I'll prolly have to buy my own eventually though.x. shoes do you wear = A pair of old half sneakersx. are you scared of = not too muchNumber...x. of times I have had my heart broken?: Actually broken or just thought it had been broken?x. of times I have broken someone else's heart?: Well, I have to admit there are a couple of times I hope I've broken some hearts, but probably none.x. of times I have been in love: love is a fickle word...x. of boys I have kissed?: hehehe...x. of girls I have kissed?: onex. of continents I have lived in?: Only the one...North America.x. of people I would classify as true, could-trust-with-my-life-type friends?: Probably just one, but I would probably trust two others also.x. of people I consider my enemies?: None.x. of cd's that I own?: Around twenty, but most are burned.x. of scars on my body?: Can't even count them- I got a whole bunch from a bike accident a couple years ago and a few surgury scars, plus the various stupid kid scars.x. of things in my past that I regret?: Not much...

Little info survey I stole...

Ha! Being a genius, I have figured out how to hide part of my journal to make the reading a bit easier... Spell your first name backwards: AicilefWhat is the story behind your user name or nickname: LadyCylest was my character name from a rather lame role playing group.Your perfect pizza: mmm…pizzaOne thing you'd like to achieve: Fame and fortune, all the way. Actually mostly the fame part…Your most overused phraze in gen'l: Not really sure on that one…prolly some sort of sarcastic reply.Your most overused phraze in AIM or ICQ: Bout the sameYour thoughts first waking up: ...uh...where am I? (Yes, every time...)The first feature you notice in the opposite(or same) sex: Hair and faceYour best physical feature: Probably I’d have to say my eyesAny scars?: Oh boy… Scars from three surgeries between two knees, road rash scars on my fingers, hands, arms, ankles and forehead, large, though diminishing bump on my forehead, one on my finger from when I was about six and decided I needed to find out how sharp my mothers scissors were, and various other stupid little kid scars, mostly on my arms. Poor arms…they seem to get the worst of it.Any broken bones: Broke my (unfortunately) left wrist in third grad, possibly a broken foot bone and the tip of my finger is broken. And yet I don’t consider myself hopelessly clumsy or klutzy…</b>Most recent book read: The Firm by John Grishom. And I am currently reading a book on How to See and Read the Aura, borrowed and eventually returned to a friend.Most recent DVD watched: Shallow Hal I believe… though I watch a lot of DVDs/movies so I could be wrong…Last movie you saw in the theatre: Pirates of the Caribbean….four times, yea baby! You Prefer. . .coffee/tea: Raspberry teaPepsi/coke: Coca-Cola all the way.Chocolate or vanilla: Both. Preferable together. Mmm, chocolate chip...night/day: Either works for me, though the night is defiantly coolersummer/winter: Summer and Winterspring/fall: Spring and Fallcountry/jazz: Countryrock/classical: Rock, though I do enjoy listening to classical.new age/hip hop: Either one is digestible but I’d rather not listen to them. Do you. . . ?Smoke: No though I did try it once and I have decided that it is not an activity I would enjoy partaking in.Cuss: Fuck no.Sing well: Like an opera star, or at least I think so…Take a shower everyday: Yes, most defiantly yes.Want to go (back, if applicable) to college: Currently enrolled full-time at ASU.Like school?: Depends on my mood…Get motion sickness: OccasionallyPlay an instrument: Flute and the piccolo. Have you ever. . .?Played a game that required removal of clothing? Depends on the definition of game…Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No, closest I’ve ever been is a little tipsy.Gotten beaten up: Nope.Played a mean practical joke: Not that I can think of.Gone to an adult or sex store?: No. Gone to an adult movie?: No.Drawn something naughty: No.Read porn at work: Nope. Written a letter to the editor: Nope.Written a naughty story to an adult magazine: Nope.Written a survey: Nope.

Boys...

Boys...can't live with them, can but would rather not live without them...I know that last part from experience. Anyways, I sorta have a boyfriend now. We have been acting much like boyfriend and girlfriend lately, he pays for my movies and dinner and general stuff like that- I even got him to buy me the greatest little smilyface devil keychain, and we recently just moved it up a step. Basically I went over to his house to watch a couple moveis. It all started out innocently enough but by the second movie he was basically lying on me after getting a back massage, and by the third movie we were pretty much using each other as pillows. The next night ( I was back over there a couple nights later) we ended up curled up on the floor together and I went home at five thirty in the morning sporting two small and one rather large spot on my neck...how it got there of course I don't know... Now the problem comes of actually moving to boyfriend/girlfriend status or just staying friends-perhaps with a few benefits. Personally, I would like to date him, but then I have the problem of going off to college and meeting all sorts of new boys. I always said I would not have a boyfriend left over from high school when I went to college but... And also, I seem to be kinda nervous around him now. It's like I don't know how to talk to him anymore...I'm pretty sure that will wear off though- this is all kinda new and we are good friends, I'm just to busy trying to figure out if we should go out or not to actually talk. The last little problem with dating him is whether or not he actually wants to date me. I have always thought he liked me, but I did bring up the 'are we technically going out' conversation, then asked outright 'do you want to', but he responded with an 'i don't know.' Being the overanalytical person I think I am sometimes, and on top of that a woman, that basically translates as a no to me. Of course, he could be just as confused as I am on the subject and 'i don't know' is really his honest feelings- he certianly ACTS like he wants to date me, but then I don't know. I suppose I'll just have to wait and/or talk it out with him. And now for those that have actually made it all the way thorough this hopelessly tangled and rather confusing rambling, I have made my head hurt. And read my bio!~Felicia

Bio Update!

New bio...running out of time, read it!Felicia

Update Time!

Figured twas time to update... I don't do too many interesting things, but they do occasionally happen. First of all, I have a sort of job. I call it sort of because I haven't started it yet and I don't know if I shall actually get any money out of it because it pays on a commission only basis. Hopefully I shall be able to make some money though... who knows? Also, I am beginning to become obsessed. [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<all [...] britani's>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]Figured twas time to update... I don't do too many interesting things, but they do occasionally happen. First of all, I have a sort of job. I call it sort of because I haven't started it yet and I don't know if I shall actually get any money out of it because it pays on a commission only basis. Hopefully I shall be able to make some money though... who knows? Also, I am beginning to become obsessed. <all Britani's fault- I swear- she never should have taken me to that movie> That movie is none other than...the magnificent Pirates of the Caribbean with the amazing Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp. I have seen it a total of three times. Doesn't exactly mean I paid for it three times as there was a *slight* mix up with my ticket the second time and I was able to use it for a third time, but that is beside the point. Anyways...I have Orlando and Johnny locked up in my little room so the annoying fangirls can't get to them. And that IS my reason, no matter what *ahem* some people might say. Other than that, I have officially become an ASU student. I registered for classes and got my SunCard last Friday. I am going to be taking a block class with English, World Religions, History and Political Sciences all mixed up into one- the name of the class is War, Memory and Culture, so it should be pretty interesting and a Pre Calculus class. I plan on getting a geology degree and going to law school to study environmental law, so this should help me get a good start on it all. Must be taking my leave now, there is someone else looking to use the computer and I still have a couple of things to do online.Adios! Felicia

Recent happenings...

Interesting things have been happening lately. I got Brittany, Bryce and Bridgette interested in Ouija boards. We snuck one into Brittanys room in direct violation of orders from Jacqui and have been talking to a ghost that calls himself Peter. He dosen't like Brittany-called her a bitch, or Bryce, but he likes me and Bridgette. We have decided that it probably isn't such a good idea to talk to him too often. We were also involved in a rather serious accident this morining. Jacqui was pulling into a shopping center when the Tahoe we were riding in was struck by a F350. The tire was popped, side crunched a little and the door was a little banged up too. Brittany and Jacqui were taken to the hospital strapped to gurneys, Bridgette and I got a first class ride in a cop car a little while after them (we had no other way to get there!) I do hope that was the last time I shall be transported by cop car, as it was quite uncomfortable. Brittany ended up with no substantial injurys-just a hit shoulder and a headache. Jacqui strained her neck, back and shoulder. Bridgette is fine, but I think I probably did some minor damage to my neck. Just minutes before the crash as we were driving down the street, I decided that putting my seatbelt on would probably be a good idea. If Jacqui and I hadn't been wearing our belts, we would have been thrown onto the dash and seriously injured, if not killed. The damage to the car was minimal, but there was a LOT of force behind it. Also, the police said that if we hadn't been in a Tahoe, Brittany probably would have been squashed..but luckily we came out with minor injuries and a little bit of body work on the car. Other than that we have not been doing too much. I must go now though as I have been asked to do a few small pictures for Jacquis website.Felicia

Just been in...

Just been invited to go hang out with some kid who supposedly wants to hook up with me... was gonna write a bit more but...Felicia

hmm...kinda pointless rambling...

I can't take too long on this...I have only an hour of internet time at the library, but tis an hour longer than I would have otherwise. Anyways...I suppose I should write something about graduation...twas pretty fun. I went to Lindsey's house for a while, but Matt was being annoying and whiney and I had to leave to take hime to another party. I wanted to go back to Lindseys but she was driving up to Pinetope the next morning and I didn't want to disturb her if she was sleeping. Apparantly she wasn't sleeping-couldn't get everyone out of her house till three in the morning, but oh well. I really do wish I'd gone back, but tis in the past now. Nothing really amazing happened graduation night. The next weekend I spent with my grandfather, aunt and uncle who had come down from Pennsilvania for the ceremony. I didn't get to see them afterwards-that was kinda sad, but there were over 2000 people there, so it wasn't too surprising. I did get to see my old neighbors from my old neighborhood. That was really cool. They are nice people and I haven't seen them since we moved away. Right now I am staying with my grandmother and my cousin Aaron. I really like staying at Mamaws and hanging out with Aaron. We have been doing lots of fun things too. Last Sunday we went tubing on the Salt, my first time. Aaron got his whole leg burned and a little on his stomach and back. I didn't get burned too bad- just a really red spot on my knee where I missed the sunscreen. Next time we go we are going to get a big group- like ten or fifteen people, and all float down together. Oh yes...other interesting things we have done! We found out that Ouija boards really do work- we talked to my uncle, Aarons dad that died in a car accident when we were six, and my great grandmother double, and a couple other spirits that we do not know the names of. The first spirit we talked to was in a graveyard at two in the morning-talk about some freaky shit. We asked if there were any spirits around, and the planchette(the little pointer thing) went to yes then went to the 'go' on good bye then up to the moon symbol in one of the corners. That was kinda freaky so we asked if it wanted us to leave and it zipped STRAIGHT over to the yes. We left. I am also learning to race my car. Aaron showed me how to shift into the lower gears to go faster from a complete stop and from a starting point while I am driving. I had my first real racing experience today. Twas really cool. I was sitting at a light next to two other cars, and I was like hmm....wonder if my baby can beat them. So I shifted her down into first gear and took off when the light turned. A guy in a Saturn was keeping up with me a little so I pressed it a little more and shifted to second gear. This got me ahead of him a little and so I decided I should probably slow down before I get pulled over. The guy took that as a sign that he won I think- either that or he was just coasting, but I slowed down so I could go behind him and turn at the light I needed to turn at. Twas really cool though, and the guy seemed pretty nice. He waved at me when we pulled up to the light after we raced a little.Anyways...I should get off before my time runs out. Adios!~Felicia

Today is the ...

Today is the last day of school...figured I should prolly update now since I shan't have another chance for a while. Currently taking finals, in this class as a matter of fact. This final is finished tho-definatly easy. Yesterday I had my band final. We played some odd song called 'Chester' then messed around for a while. I played Hot Cross Buns- the first song I ever played on my flute, and the last song I shall ever play for school. I think I shall join some sort of chamber group next year- I really don't want to quit, but I also don't want to join the marching band next year. Cheerier news!-I am no longer computerless at home! My mother got Rick to buy me a graduation present- a Sony laptop! Tis really cool...small and lightweight so I can carry it around next year, titanium case, CD drive(no burner though) and lots and lots of programs. We bought it used from a doctor who had to upgrade to keep up with his office, so it is very lightly used and has all the professional programs he used. He had Windows XP, Adobe, another photo editing program, word, power point, excell, access, publisher, front page and all sorts of other things on it. I am probably going to write my journal entries on it and save them there till I can pay for internet access or till I can take them to another computer. Only problem with the laptop is that it has a memory stick instead of an A drive, so I can't just save my stuff to a regular disk to take it to another computer. I can prolly just hook it up to the moniter, but that requires a computer that I am allowed to hook things up to(they get a little uptight with these school things)*realizes that this is the LAST time she shall EVER have to get on a school computer*Seven minute bell just rang- I have SEVEN minutes left!! *hopes her grades haven't taken a sudden dive or all sorts of fines and stuff that must be paid jump up last minute before she walks**Realizes she is rambling horribly and should probably get off..*Ojala, voy a escribir hace poco tiempo...adios!Felicia

3 more days...

I am in an odd mood right now, so I suppose twould be in order to disregard some of the odd things I shall probably say. Maybe I shouldn't rely on cookies and Dr Pepper for breakfast...anyways!Recent events in the life of Felicia...I am currently beginning high school finals...the last high school finals I shall ever have to take. I am trying to plan what I am going to do this summer. Some of my choices include going to California, going to Flagstaff, or staying down in this oven for the entire summer. I wanted to stay at my job until mid July then go to Flagstaff, but times don't seem to be working on that one. Another alternative was taking two weeks off of work and going to Flag, but I didn't want to take two weeks off for fear that my job would no longer remain when I returned. That problem has been solved for me now though because I no longer HAVE a job...walked into work yesterday and was informed that for apparently no reason my boss decided to cut me a check. My co worker, who had the misfortune of having to deliver the news because my boss was off playing golf, said that she really had no idea why he just decided to fire me like that, but oh well. My mother said he was a jerk anyways. hmmm....not a whole lot else going on that I can think of, but I have been forgetting many things lately. We have a senior slide show that we must leave for soon so I shall post this now...adios!

Another pointless rambling...

Again, I am supposed to be working on my web page. Don't know why I can't seem to get myself to work on it- we have a cool idea and it isn't hard or anything, I just don't feel like it. I have decided recently that I have to do something interesting this summer. Last year I began planning a trip that was supposed to take place this year to backpack around Europe with my friend Brittany, but she will not be old enough to go until August and then I must start school again. Hopefully next year we shall take the trip, but tis beginning to look like we shall have to wait two years. Right now I am considering jumping on a Greyhound or maybe even driving and visiting cool places. I mostly just want to go to Six Flags and San Fransisco. Mexico would be cool too, but tis kinda scary down there. But on to other current events. Lindsey and I have decided that we shall have boyfriends. We were talking to another friend of ours, TJ, and she mentioned the fact that when you are boyfriendless, you are pretty much untouchable by the opposite sex. But once you become involved, boys that like you start crawling out of almost every crack imaginable. So Lindsey and I now have boyfriends. My boyfriends name is Jason. He has eye-level length medium brown hair that has the coolest golden streaks in the sunlight and ice blue eyes. He works at Einstein Bagels and drives a black Jeep Wrangler. Tis about all I know about him right now though, seeing as we only met this weekend and all. lol...we are freaks. Anyways... class time is dwindling so I must get off here.

First Entry!

Ok...first journal entry! I have had my journal for about four days now, and not yet have I written one word in it. I am supposed to be working on a web page, but I don't think that is going to happen right now. I suppose I should write about my weekend. I went to prom this weekend. I had my best friend, Brittany, come down from Flagstaff to go with me to prom. She went with my cousin Aaron. I was supposed to go with a used-to-be-but-is-no-longer(i think?) best guy friend. He dumped me about two and a half weeks ago, right before Easter, then the next week told me that he really didn't even want to be friends any longer. I ended up taking his sister Marcia and a another girl, Jessica, jumped in with our group. Matt was there when I went to pick Marcia up. I caught him looking at me a couple times. I really don't know what his problem is. I have a strong suspicion that it is a possibility that he is afraid of what has been going on between us this year, but I also have a strong feeling that I should just forget about him and move on. Speaking of moving on...back to prom. We ended up sneaking in accidentally, which kinda sucked because we all paid for tickets anyways. Didn't do much dancing, my cousin and Marcia made me feel pretty self conscious. We had fun though. They had these cool little strawberry men- the were chocolate dipped strawberries that had little tuxes done on them and lots of sodas. Apparently they had virgin drinks too-pen bar, but we didn't notice them. We basically just got pictures and left. We went to our post-prom party that I had organized at Brittany's hotel and played poker. Over all the night was a success, but I would have been more satisfied if Matt had gone. *does shoulder shrug* Life goes on. Now I must go work on my web page.