Boys...

Boys...can't live with them, can but would rather not live without them...I know that last part from experience. Anyways, I sorta have a boyfriend now. We have been acting much like boyfriend and girlfriend lately, he pays for my movies and dinner and general stuff like that- I even got him to buy me the greatest little smilyface devil keychain, and we recently just moved it up a step. Basically I went over to his house to watch a couple moveis. It all started out innocently enough but by the second movie he was basically lying on me after getting a back massage, and by the third movie we were pretty much using each other as pillows. The next night ( I was back over there a couple nights later) we ended up curled up on the floor together and I went home at five thirty in the morning sporting two small and one rather large spot on my neck...how it got there of course I don't know... Now the problem comes of actually moving to boyfriend/girlfriend status or just staying friends-perhaps with a few benefits. Personally, I would like to date him, but then I have the problem of going off to college and meeting all sorts of new boys. I always said I would not have a boyfriend left over from high school when I went to college but... And also, I seem to be kinda nervous around him now. It's like I don't know how to talk to him anymore...I'm pretty sure that will wear off though- this is all kinda new and we are good friends, I'm just to busy trying to figure out if we should go out or not to actually talk. The last little problem with dating him is whether or not he actually wants to date me. I have always thought he liked me, but I did bring up the 'are we technically going out' conversation, then asked outright 'do you want to', but he responded with an 'i don't know.' Being the overanalytical person I think I am sometimes, and on top of that a woman, that basically translates as a no to me. Of course, he could be just as confused as I am on the subject and 'i don't know' is really his honest feelings- he certianly ACTS like he wants to date me, but then I don't know. I suppose I'll just have to wait and/or talk it out with him. And now for those that have actually made it all the way thorough this hopelessly tangled and rather confusing rambling, I have made my head hurt. And read my bio!~Felicia